There's a version of life where you wake up and forgive yourelf

Where the voices in your head are kind, and you trust yourself. A life where you know what you want and have the courage to go for it, ask for it, and stand firmly no matter what happens. There are people who will love you for who you are, if only you’d let them.


And if you’d told me that 10 years ago, I would have given you a very fake sarcastic smile and made a snide comment.


Back then, I automatically dismissed people who used the words like “self love.”


Bullsh*t. I was sure nobody actually liked themselves or felt confident and comfortable, deep down. And if they did, they had some perfect easy life and clean track record. They weren’t like me. They didn’t understand.


And I lived in that story year after year, until it got dark enough, hard enough, and lonely enough to push me to try something different.


Not to "love myself." To survive.


Turns out that when you do the hard things that have been calling to you, you happen to build a lot of that resilience and respect that all those self-love people told me about.


I built Capacity because figuring this out alone was brutal, lonely, and slow.


Come on, I’ll go with you.

Let's Go

Build your {capacity} for truth

Build your {capacity} for truth

You're not exhausted because you're doing too much.

You're exhausted because you're pretending too much.

You're not exhausted because you're doing too much.

You're exhausted because you're pretending too much.

Registration closes April 4th

Registration closes April 4th

Build your {capacity} for truth

You're not exhausted because you're doing too much.

You're exhausted because you're pretending too much.

Registration closes April 4th

Within all of us, there's a longing to tell the truth.

Within all of us, there's a longing to tell the truth.

And right behind it, there’s an equally strong feeling of,
“Yeahhh no thanks. I would rather die than let someone into the darkest corners of my reality.”

Can I let you in on a secret?

Everyone else also privately thinks they are uniquely f*cked up in ways that, if anyone ever found out, they would never be loved or accepted.


So here we all are, hiding the same things from each other, exhausted by the performance, wondering when it gets to stop.

It stops when you stop.

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CAPACITY is a 4-week live cohort that teaches you specific skills to face life head-on.

CAPACITY is a 4-week live cohort that teaches you specific skills to face life head-on.

CAPACITY is a 4-week live cohort that teaches you specific skills to face life head-on.

The next round starts on Sunday, April 5th.

Each week builds capacity for the next and strengthens your self-trust.


You'll learn to read your own signals, tell the truth faster, and stop outsourcing your decisions to your anxiety. It's not therapy. It's a practice- with reps, rhythm, and a community of people doing it with you.

The next round starts on Sunday, April 5th.

Each week builds capacity for the next and strengthens your self-trust.


You'll learn to read your own signals, tell the truth faster, and stop outsourcing your decisions to your anxiety. It's not therapy. It's a practice- with reps, rhythm, and a community of people doing it with you.

No hacks. No healing theatre. Just the slow, specific work of becoming someone who doesn't abandon themselves.

No hacks. No healing theatre.

Just the slow, specific work of becoming someone who doesn't abandon themselves.

No hacks. No healing theatre. Just the slow, specific work of becoming someone who doesn't abandon themselves.

Hey, I'm Zoë 👋

Hey, I'm Zoë 👋

This work doesn’t come to you from a soap box, a pedestal, or from chatGPT.


It comes from the fucken trenches.


I didn’t grow up in a household that had a great relationship with the truth. I learned how to conceal, manipulate, and distort to survive. And I was good at it. I became hyper-independent, high-functioning, and completely, achingly alone. My life was a performance, a competition, and a war. I was bitter, arrogant, defensive, and (secretly) really sad.


I didn’t clean up my act because I wanted to be “in integrity” or because I suddenly felt worthy of a good life.


I just got tired.


Tired of the personality gymnastics. Tired of feeling like I needed to stretch the truth to be good enough, and to minimize my needs to be lovable.


To me, this work isn’t about morality. I’m not interested in helping you become another version of the good girl/ good boy.


I’m interested in what might happen if we let you out of that cage and unleashed you on the world. Because I’d like some company starting a ruckus and building a less punishing world.


This work doesn’t come to you from a soap box, a pedestal, or from chatGPT.


It comes from the fucken trenches.


I didn’t grow up in a household that had a great relationship with the truth. I learned how to conceal, manipulate, and distort to survive. And I was good at it. I became hyper-independent, high-functioning, and completely, achingly alone. My life was a performance, a competition, and a war. I was bitter, arrogant, defensive, and (secretly) really sad.


I didn’t clean up my act because I wanted to be “in integrity” or because I suddenly felt worthy of a good life.


I just got tired.


Tired of the personality gymnastics. Tired of feeling like I needed to stretch the truth to be good enough, and to minimize my needs to be lovable. I didn't have word for it back then. Life just felt hard, and I questioned myself at every turn.


To me, this work isn’t about morality. I’m not interested in helping you become another version of the good girl/ good boy.


I’m interested in what might happen if we let you out of that cage and unleashed you on the world. Because I’d like some company starting a ruckus and building a less punishing world.


If that sounds like something you could get down with, or if that scares the shit out of you, this is for you.

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If official credentials are your thing

If official credentials are your thing

I have a degree in Kinesiology, and have deeply studied human psychology, somatic therapy, and systems theory. I’ve blended these fields to help hundreds of people make changes that re-align their lives, bodies, relationships, and businesses.


I gave up my license and left clinical practice so I could integrate all the tools that work, rather than fill out insurance forms and watch people fall through the cracks.

If unofficial credentials are your thing

I have a phd in doing hard sh*t, resurrecting my life, and wading through grief and shame. I used to live in a car, have $35k in debt, be addicted to prescription sedatives, and have zero real friends.


Now I have an incredible community, delightfully cozy home, steady income, and a genuine sense of deep self-respect. I trust myself. The voices in my head are kind. I’m a good friend and partner. I go on wild adventures. And somewhere along the way, I realized I’m an artist.


The system I teach in Capacity is the work that bridged the gap ⚡️

I'm in, skip to the details
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The Story

For the last 18 months, I ran an experiment in my life.

For the last 18 months, I ran an experiment in my life.

I made a game out of building my capacity to face the truth (I had a long way to go- and I wanted it to feel fun instead of punishing).


I made little 'quests' for myself and documented the process. It completely changed every area of my life in such immense ways that I’m publishing a map so you can find your way home, too.

I made a game out of building my capacity to face the truth (I had a long way to go- and I wanted it to feel fun instead of punishing).


I made little quests for myself and documented the process. It completely changed every area of my life in such immense and unexpected ways that I’ve drawn a map so you can find your way home, too.

I made a game out of building my capacity to face the truth (I had a long way to go- and I wanted it to feel fun instead of punishing).


I made little 'quests' for myself and documented the process. It completely changed every area of my life in such immense and unexpected ways that I’m publishing a map so you can find your way home, too.

The Path

The Path

  • 1 - Make contact with the truth

    -

    slowly, specifically, & consistently

    Old Strategy: Avoiding, pretending, lying.

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  • 2 - Get precise about what's real

    -

    accuracy recalibrates & reconnects

    Old Strategy: Exaggerating, minimizing, withholding.

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  • 3 - Recover what’s yours

    -

    preferences, desires, dreams

    Old Strategy: Performing, people-pleasing, going numb.

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  • 4 - Show up to practice

    -

    learn to play the infinite game

    Old Strategy: Substituting planning for motion. Stopping when it gets hard, boring, or vulnerable. Grand vows to avoid small reps.

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  • 5 - Express & Ask

    -

    without demand, entitlement, or collapse

    Old Strategy: Over-explaining, rehearsing forever, hinting. Avoiding the clean no.

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  • 1 - Make contact with the truth

    -

    slowly, specifically, & consistently

    Old Strategy: Avoiding, pretending, lying.

    BG Image

  • 2 - Get precise about what's real

    -

    accuracy recalibrates & reconnects

    Old Strategy: Exaggerating, minimizing, withholding.

    BG Image

  • 3 - Recover what’s yours

    -

    preferences, desires, dreams

    Old Strategy: Performing, people-pleasing, going numb.

    BG Image

  • 4 - Show up to practice

    -

    learn to play the infinite game

    Old Strategy: Substituting planning for motion. Stopping when it gets hard, boring, or vulnerable. Grand vows to avoid small reps.

    BG Image

  • 5 - Express & Ask

    -

    without demand, entitlement, or collapse

    Old Strategy: Over-explaining, rehearsing forever, hinting. Avoiding the clean no.

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The Quests:

The Quests:

Specific weekly assignments that create real change when repeated. No random “homework.” Just in-your-life actions that make a difference.

There's two parts to each quest: 🔬 Lab Work, and 🎒 Fieldwork.

You’ll get clear instructions on how to practice paying attention and participating differently. It’ll be edgy, and you can go as slow as you need to.

The Rewards:

The Rewards:

⚡️ Steadily rising self-respect and resilience

⚡️ Increased capacity for turning towards difficulty

⚡️ Ability to connect deeply with others

⚡️ Reconnection to your preferences, desires, and dreams

⚡️ Influx of creativity

⚡️ Solidifying identity

⚡️ The ability to make sh*t happen.

This isn't magic or empty promises. It's a system of specific skills that, when practiced consistently, renegotiate the reality of your life.

The Vibe


An I.V. drip of truth.

The safe place to land & the
push out of the nest when you need it.

Anti-poison. Relief. Battle cries.

Pep talks & pragmatic tools.

A companion for the dark road.

No shame. No sugar-coating. No bullsh*t.

Let's Go

The Vibe


An I.V. drip of truth.

The safe place to land & the
push out of the nest when you need it.

Anti-poison. Relief. Battle cries.

Pep talks & pragmatic tools.

A companion for the dark road.

No shame. No sugar-coating. No bullsh*t.

Let's Go

Benefits

This system will teach you how to:

This system will teach you how to:

This system will teach you how to:

🫀

Be Less Sh*tty to Yourself

The hard-ass shame & guilt method doesn't work. We both know that. But it'll be the default until you have a different plan.

😤

Do Hard Things

Handle life head-on, even when you feel that pit in your stomach. The thing you keep putting off. The conversation you're avoiding. Yeah, that one.

🫂

Connect for Real

Form friendships and relationships where you don’t subtly lie, perform, exaggerate, and hide.

🧭

Find Your Wants

Ever gone blank when someone asks you what you want? This is where you reconnect to your preferences and desires, and tune into the deeper whisper of life.

🔁

Get Consistent

Build a practice of doing the things that matter to you, and finding your way back when you fall off.

🫆

Be Human

Work with the waves of grief, shame, and unworthiness that come with being human (rather than avoiding & repressing them).

Registration

Let's do the damn thing

Let's do the damn thing

Let's do the damn thing

Registration closes April 4th

$350

One-time payment. Founding cohort price.

Register

Weekly video modules

Weekly group debrief calls

Clear instructions for in-your-life action

Private community for accountability & support

Private podcast feed to maintain momentum

Forever access to future cohorts & updates

Price increases after April cohort.

Registration closes April 4th

$350

One-time payment.

Founding cohort price.

Register

Weekly video modules

Weekly group debrief calls

Clear instructions for in-your-life action

Private community for accountability & support

Private podcast feed to maintain momentum

Forever access to future cohorts & updates

Price increases after April cohort.

FAQ's

What do I actually get?

Weekly video lesson outlining the two practices for the week Private Community Group w/ lifetime access to future rounds Midweek accountability nudge dropped into your inbox Clear instructions and practical tools (mindset and energy are super important but tbh they follow action so let’s get those boots on the ground) Access to a private podcast

I have got a busy life... how much time is this going to take?

If you can commit to watching a 20-minute video once a week, you’re good. If you can swap 10 minutes of your daily screen time for some Raw Hot Messy Truth Journaling, you’re absolutely golden. This isn’t a “class” you need to attend, it’s a skill set you are committing to practicing for a month. The 'homework' is responding to specific parts of your life differently. You will be given very clear instructions on how to do this. You don’t actually need to learn that much more, you need experience reps. The reps will teach you more than another human ever could. There are supporting (optional) resources that are designed to fit into your life (like the private podcast!)

Why is it called 'Capacity'?

Because this is about expanding what you’re able to hold. Widening your tolerance for what’s real. What you really want. How you really feel. What you really want to say. There’s levels to this system. Each level involves a specific skill. You practice the skills to build your capacity for them in progressively harder situations. Spoiler alert: you’ll never be perfect at any of it. And that’s not the point. The point is to build capacity so you can hold a little more next time. You can get better and better at these skills for life. It’s like going to the gym. You start with light weights and build yourself up so you can handle more. And some days, even the 10’s are gonna feel heavy if life is really testing you. Come back tomorrow. Capacity is always in flux. Your job is to keep showing up and putting in the reps.

I should probably wait until I'm less stressed, right?

(lovingly) lol, no. This is the antidote. And, I get the concern. It’s not all sunshine and roses. It’s hard to look at some of this. But this is discomfort with an end date. Discomfort that is moving the needle towards the life you want, instead of away. Years ago, in the face of one of my meltdowns, a mentor of mine said “Realigning your life is always going to be a b*tch. Stop trying to make it comfortable.” And I still think about that a lot. You already do hard things all the time. Putting up with being mistreated is hard. Silencing your needs and desires is hard. Shapeshifting for approval is hard. Living in a body that can’t do what you want it to is hard. You’re already doing difficult things. Now you’re going to use that skill set in a new direction. You can go through this program and put in very small reps in the places you’re ready to, and over time you will naturally expand that. This month is just to teach you the skills that you will deepen for life.

What's the schedule? What happens if I can't make it to one of the calls?

We start on April 5th. Each Sunday, a new video module is released along with instructions for the week’s quest. Every Thursday at 4pm CST we’ll have group debrief calls to check in on your progress, get back on track, and keep up the momentum. No stress if you can't make it live. Everything will be recorded, and you've got 24/7 access to the online community for questions and support.

There's a version of life where you wake up and forgive yourelf

Where the voices in your head are kind, and you trust yourself. A life where you know what you want and have the courage to go for it. There are people who will love you for who you are, if only you’d let them.


And if you’d told me that 10 years ago, I would have given you a very fake sarcastic smile and made a snide comment.


Back then, I automatically dismissed people who used the words like “self love.”


Bullsh*t. I was sure nobody actually liked themselves or felt confident and comfortable, deep down. And if they did, they had some perfect easy life and clean track record. They weren’t like me. They didn’t understand.


And I lived in that story year after year, until it got dark enough, hard enough, and lonely enough to push me to try something different.


Not to "love myself." To survive.


Turns out that when you do the hard things that have been calling to you, you happen to build a lot of that resilience and respect that all those self-love people told me about.


I built Capacity because figuring this out alone was brutal, lonely, and slow.


Come on, I’ll go with you.

Still feeling into it? Let me tell you a story

Let's Go